Good morning everyone!
I am snuggled into my new christmas chair. I’ve wrapped in a quilt with the new flannel pj’s I got. I have turned on Netflix and stoked the fire. The temperature outside is below zero and if you open the door, your nose will freeze shut. To keep up, I have turned on the backup propane heat. The fire is burning hot and I am warm and toasty with Max. I took my Christmas Tree down and its waiting for my son. I can’t lift it to return it to the storage unit.
I have sad news. The kids grandpa on Bruce’s side has passed on. Bruce along with his sister’s nursed their dad through a bad cancer. I believe it was Colon Cancer. For the last year they have kept busy watching their father deteriorate and I am sorry for them all. Cancer is a nasty stranger brought to everyone’s door. No one wants it and the bastard finds its way in somehow or another. My heart goes out to the family and I pray they get some sort of peace knowing their dad is out of pain now.
I got to see my daughter the week before Christmas! She and her new family are doing well. I have no idea how she juggles her schedule. Full time work, Full time pregnancy, full-time mom and going to school on the side with a full-time marriage. I feel exhausted just thinking of all that. Of course, somewhere in my life I did something similar and I was much younger. I can’t imagine doing something like that now.
I am slowly healing from the surgery and doing better most days. I have my moments. The terrifying thought lies with the removal of a part of my spine to accomplish this goal. It seems to be working…. but what if I fall?? I have nightmares of that thought. I slipped on the handicap ramp here at the house a week ago and I panicked. I JUST knew that things would break. I was indeed sore for a few days, but I lived. But the fear remains.
I hope you all had a wonderful New Year’s. I quietly sat writing and listened to the neighbors blow up fireworks. I watched a movie and ate popcorn and somewhere around one I silently slipped into bed and looked at the empty space that used to have a husband in it. I prayed and lay my weary head on my pillow and slumbered.
Bless you and your wonderful New Year and cherish every moment.